I’m Tired

Well hi there, friend. How are you doing? I hope you’re doing well. I’m pretty pooped myself. Tired, buggered, exhausted, or fair wabbit as my Pa might say (…I don’t know either…he’s Scottish.) And I don’t just mean temporarily. I’ve been feeling a bit over it all since before Christmas – and by “it” I mean blogging.

I think part of it is to do with feeling like I needed to write every week and to try and be innovative all the time. But part of it is just that I genuinely don’t really feel like blogging at the moment. I’ve got post ideas swirling round and round in my head, I’ve made multiple lists scattered all over the place, but when I think about sitting down and writing it out, my motivation takes flight and swoops out the window like some majestic ARSEHOLE because that’s my goddamn motivation d’you hear and I need it back!

*ahem*

My lack of energy towards blogging might have something to do with the fact that I’m (slowly) wrapping up my PhD and am knee-deep in writing multiple chapters for that, so the last thing I feel like doing when I come home is setting up my laptop to stare at the screen and start up typing again. I used to like doing it because it was something creative that could distract me from my various thesis woes. But right now, I actually want to do my thesis. GASP. I KNOW. (Don’t worry, I’ve made a doctor’s appointment later this week.)

My, how the tables have turned. I actively want to write my thesis and don’t want to write for my blog – handy, really, if a little unsettling. I’m trying not to question this new-found energy and focus in case it gets spooked and runs away so let’s just go with the flow and see where it takes us. This doesn’t mean I’m quitting my blog; it just means I won’t be posting all that frequently. I posted almost once a week for every week of last year and, for the most part, really enjoyed doing it. It’s just not feasible for me to continue with that during this last little sprint/slow crawl towards the finish line. One thing I do plan to try and maintain on a semi-regular basis though is my photography. I have a few photo-based series in the works and am quite keen to keep up with that.

So please bear with me as I don my adult pantaloons and prioritise the thing that will (hopefully) get me a job so I can finally have a house and a puppy and sewing room. Thank you!

Jacquie

TL;DR: I’m tired and won’t be posting very often.

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  1. Annette of I Give You The Verbs

    I think there’s a bit of bloggy blah going around at the moment. I’ve got it too, but don’t have the ideas or lists that you do.
    Yay for being into finalising your thesis – run with that!
    Photography projects sound good, and remember this is YOUR blog so any notions of “must do it this way” should bugger right off.
    Be good to yourself. Often and deliberately.

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    1. birdandfox

      So much wisdom in one comment, Annette! I completely agree – tis MY blog and my blog alone. I dislike that I still get sucked in every so often but at least I’m becoming more aware of it now.

      Thanks so much for your kind words. I hope you’re also being good to yourself! By the looks of your sweet sketchings and delicious food, I’d say so! And I hope your bloggy blah takes a hike sometime soon too.

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  2. Dawn

    Best of luck with your thesis!! We will all be here when your motivation comes back (I’m sure it will!) xoxo

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    1. birdandfox

      Thanks so much Dawn! I’m looking forward to taking a break but now I will be ready to come back sometime in the near future ๐Ÿ™‚ Thanks again! x

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  3. Emily

    xx do what you need to do . See you when we see you lovely !

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    1. birdandfox

      Thanks Emily! Your support has been so wonderful. See you when I’m back! x

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  4. Carolyn

    Your thesis is huge and a priority at the moment. With something so significant in your plate you can’t afford the time to do something that is making you feel ‘blah’. We’ll all still be keen readers when you feel like returning, Dr Jacquie xx

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    1. birdandfox

      Very true, Carolyn. Thank you so much – all your comments along the way have been so lovely. Can’t wait to get back into it when the time is right x

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  5. Catherine Elizabeth

    I will miss your regular posts Jacquie! But, I totally get it. Don your adult pantaloons. I’ve been finding it so hard to keep up with the blogging lately, as the last three months of 2015 were insane for me and I’m just pooped. I think I’m still recovering, in fact. I’ve always been impressed by how you managed to maintain such a quality blog and a PhD. You go girl!
    Best of luck with your PhD, and I’ll be keeping an eye on Bird and Fox for whenever you do manage to fit in some blogging ๐Ÿ™‚

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    1. birdandfox

      Thank you so much, Catherine! How lovely of you!

      It’s hard isn’t it? I think feeling a bit “blah” at the end of the year is just so common for a lot of people. It’s the time when you realise “Oh wait I’m actually feeling really quite rundown – okay, I need a break now please.” I hope you can find some time for yourself and recuperate ๐Ÿ™‚

      Thanks again Catherine!

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  6. Em

    Good call Jacquie – sometimes we just need to make the call on what is really important at the time. All the best for your thesis. I hope the words flow and you enjoy the space you’ve given yourself to really immerse yourself in it. See you back here when you’re ready!

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    1. birdandfox

      So very true. And it was surprisingly easy to make this call, which was nice.

      Thank you! I’ll need all the well wishes I can get re writing! See you around ๐Ÿ™‚ Thanks again, Em.

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  7. Clare at CatsEatDogs

    It sounds like you are doing the right thing. We will still be here, hanging about, waiting to hear from you when you are ready. Wanting to work on your thesis is a wonderful thing, good luck and see you back here soon x

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    1. birdandfox

      Thank you so much, Clare – that means a lot. It certainly feels like I’m doing the right thing, which is nice! Thanks again Clare ๐Ÿ™‚ x

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  8. shaninottingham

    wow..more comments here than i ever get!!!! Well honey, i have been on blog sabbatical for almost two months. time to fill the cup, as some wise person said to me. big hugs to you and good luck with thesis…. YOU CAN DO THIS!!! XXXX

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    1. birdandfox

      Very true, Shani! I just need some time off to focus on what’s super important right now and then I can come back refreshed and energised ๐Ÿ™‚ Thanks so much for your words of encouragement! Everyone’s comments have just been so unbelievably lovely and supportive. Thanks again Shani! x

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  9. One Small LIfe One Small Life

    oh my god – majestic arsehole! Love it. Listen – GO FOR IT! It’s great that you feel so motivated to finish your thesis. And I have felt exactly the same as you around blogging and I’m here to tell you a break does wonders. WONDERS I tells ya. Also, when people say they’ll be here for you when you get back in my experience they mean it! So go, run, fly after that majestic asrehole motivation. Use it to get your PhD. Then come back here and brag about it. We’ll all be waiting with pom poms and congratulatory cheers, you clever clogs you. x

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    1. birdandfox

      Haha thanks Kate! I plan on doing just that with that goddamn majestic arsehole motivation ๐Ÿ˜€ A blogging break really is so good for the soul, isn’t it? I’m looking forward to coming back and getting stuck into things again. Thanks so much Kate – I really appreciate your words of encouragement ๐Ÿ™‚ x

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  10. Isabel

    Will miss your cool posts, Jacquie, but when you feel like writing again, it will hopefully be with a doctorate in hand. Good luck with the PhD finishing, and it was SO lovely to finally meet you on Monday. For some reason, I lost the takeaway pizza somewhere between the restaurant and home?! When Steve got home I told him there were leftovers and he was so excited, but then we couldn’t find them! Officially insane xx

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    1. birdandfox

      Oh, what?? No way! That is so strange! I wonder where it went…you definitely had it when we left the restaurant…you didn’t put it down on the table in your hallway? I know that sounds obvious but I’ve lost my glasses when they’ve been on top of my head :/ So sad that you’ve got a case of the missing pizza.

      And thanks, I’m actually quite keen for this break. Definitely feels like the right thing to do. Thanks so much for all your support and encouragement over the past year or so! It was wonderful finally meeting you and having a nice chat ๐Ÿ™‚ Give Neo a pat for me! x

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  11. RebeccaHJ

    Follow your gut (and your heart, and the inspiration) and good luck with your thesis. I am cutting back too and it feels good to reassess things at the start of a new year x

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    1. birdandfox

      It does feel good, hey Rebecca? I think it’s always a good idea to take a break and step back. Glad to hear you’re feeling good about it all. Are you planning on doing more collages? I hope so! ๐Ÿ™‚

      Thanks Rebecca – I appreciate your lovely words and support! x

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  12. Lisa

    Hi Jacqui, I have the bloggy blahs too that have gone on for far too long. Good on you for following your heart. xxx

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    1. birdandfox

      Hi Lisa ๐Ÿ™‚
      It’s funny, I seem to have a moment like this at least once a year. Taking a break and some time out seems to be the best medicine for me. Good luck with your bloggy blahs! I hope they disappear soon.
      Thanks for your comment!

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