Well hi there, friend. How are you doing? I hope you’re doing well. I’m pretty pooped myself. Tired, buggered, exhausted, or fair wabbit as my Pa might say (…I don’t know either…he’s Scottish.) And I don’t just mean temporarily. I’ve been feeling a bit over it all since before Christmas – and by “it” I mean blogging.
I think part of it is to do with feeling like I needed to write every week and to try and be innovative all the time. But part of it is just that I genuinely don’t really feel like blogging at the moment. I’ve got post ideas swirling round and round in my head, I’ve made multiple lists scattered all over the place, but when I think about sitting down and writing it out, my motivation takes flight and swoops out the window like some majestic ARSEHOLE because that’s my goddamn motivation d’you hear and I need it back!
My lack of energy towards blogging might have something to do with the fact that I’m (slowly) wrapping up my PhD and am knee-deep in writing multiple chapters for that, so the last thing I feel like doing when I come home is setting up my laptop to stare at the screen and start up typing again. I used to like doing it because it was something creative that could distract me from my various thesis woes. But right now, I actually want to do my thesis. GASP. I KNOW. (Don’t worry, I’ve made a doctor’s appointment later this week.)
My, how the tables have turned. I actively want to write my thesis and don’t want to write for my blog – handy, really, if a little unsettling. I’m trying not to question this new-found energy and focus in case it gets spooked and runs away so let’s just go with the flow and see where it takes us. This doesn’t mean I’m quitting my blog; it just means I won’t be posting all that frequently. I posted almost once a week for every week of last year and, for the most part, really enjoyed doing it. It’s just not feasible for me to continue with that during this last little sprint/slow crawl towards the finish line. One thing I do plan to try and maintain on a semi-regular basis though is my photography. I have a few photo-based series in the works and am quite keen to keep up with that.
So please bear with me as I don my adult pantaloons and prioritise the thing that will (hopefully) get me a job so I can finally have a house and a puppy and sewing room. Thank you!
TL;DR: I’m tired and won’t be posting very often.